I can’t express how much I love my son, Eddie. He is such a light in the darkness. He senses when I need him and is always there for me. I don’t think it matters what age you are, he is so in tune to what I’m feeling.

He is sitting here next to me asking me to blow up his balloons that we got from the store today. They came with a canister that can turn them into water balloons as well. That was a fun time outside earlier. He is such a sweetheart. His innocence is priceless and I am so fortunate to have him in our life.

We were at Marshall’s earlier and he was fascinated by everything. They had Easter decorations out and he couldn’t get enough of it. He went and smelled all the candles with me and we ended up buying a Lemon candle. The best one I’ve smelled in a while. It doesn’t smell like Lysol or cleaning product, but like sweet lemonade. It’s a very grounding scent for a lot of us in the system.

Sam ended up with a Baby Yoda Wanted poster, which is absolutely adorable. I did buy a citrus scented spray (more grounding) and a Green Eggs and Ham Dr. Seuss coffee mug. Eddie or I will be enjoying that one. I could feel some of the littles getting giddy when I picked it up. I was going to go with a Stitch mug, but the verdict was that one. You win some, you lose some. It’s crazy some of the things we come away with because some things I would normally never get.

We went to Chick-fil-A afterwards so Eddie could get some playtime in at the indoor play place. He had a blast. That’s something that I love about him, he will eat all of his food before playing. He is very well behaved and has a great appetite. We lucked out in that department. His little 4-year-old energy was a delight to see. Running up and down the steps and sliding down the slide. Nonnie, my Mom, hovered over the end of the slide and when he was at the top she would go, “Boo!” and he would scream and slide down. It was adorable.

We hit up the Wal of the Marts to grab a couple things for our trip, little odds and ends we forgot about. It was a wonderful day to be honest. It’s nice to have family time and enjoy each other’s company. Tracker was by my side during some of the times today when Eddie was getting a little too hyper to settle him down. He is really good at getting him to calm down and play little games to hold his attention. Heck, I’m his Mom and don’t even think of these things until I hear Tracker’s little southern voice out the corner of my mind. I do love when he pops up. Sometimes I’m not sure if it’s him or Billy because they sound similar. I knew it was him because of the little comments he was making. It kind of deciphers for me who is who sometimes.

Lyle had to make an appearance when we were leaving our final store because Eddie was throwing a fit and it went to a stern deeper voice. It’s so weird to catch it when I do notice it. I feel like I am sitting back and watching what is going on. Not feeling the words come out of my mouth, they just do. I am impressed with a lot that happens, it blows my mind all the time. Shoot. It blew the day we all came to you, love. Ah, and then the side comments that I can’t help but type.

Anyhoo. I’ve got little Jelly Bean Eddie sitting next to me now. He wanted some Kids Mix Jelly Belly’s. Plopping a little lemon-lime bean in my had from time to time because he knows it’s Mommy’s favorite. ❤ I seriously feel like I’m going to pass out because they balloons are really hard to blow up. Okay. Gathering my head, dizziness, and thoughts.

I’m thinking I’m going to make some spaghetti for dinner. It tends to be a favorite for everyone. I need to sort through the pile of new summer clothes for Eddie and through mine to pack. I need to make a check list. Alright, I see I’m getting a head of myself here. Time to do some system things. -Bets/Tracker/Lyle