Do you believe in signs? I’m not saying just from God, like universal signs as well? I’ve been having a lot of them from both and it’s almost starting to make me panic and feel excited and confused at the same time. The issues I’m having in my life are all adding up into one big cluster and tying themselves together.
I woke up, yet again, around 5:30 am and started with my worries and prayers. My fears are not getting majority custody for our son, going through the divorce, and making sure I get all of my important documentations from our old house. It drives me into flashbacks of fights and our drunken stupidity. It makes me grab at my pillow and say, “It’s not real, you’re safe in your bed, nothing is going to hurt you.” It sucks when you have no one to help you through your problems sometimes. It’s much nicer when I’ve got you there holding me telling me everything is alright, no one is going to hurt you. I can’t wait to feel your arms wrapped tight around me again.
After I go through the hard part, I begin the other hard part, praying dangerously. Very appropriate for our recent study. I ask for the comfort to know I’m not alone and that I can make it through all I’m about to endure. Putting on my armor and fighting the good fight to a beautiful victory. Then I can truly move forward the way I know God wants me to. The way I want to.
“Now my beloved ones, I have saved these most important truths for last: Be supernaturally infused with strength through your life-union with the Lord Jesus. Stand victorious with the force of his explosive power flowing in and through you. Put on God’s complete set of armor provided for us, so that you will be protected as you fight against the evil strategies of the accuser. Your hand-to-hand combat is not with human beings, but with the highest principalities and authorities operating in rebellion under the heavenly realms. For they are a powerful class of demon-gods and evil spirits that hold this dark world in bondage. Because of this, you must wear all the armor that God provides so you’re protected as you confront the slanderer, for you are destined for all things and will rise victorious!” -Ephesians 6:10-13(TPT)
I saw this in another blog today after I specifically asked God to show me a verse today that I could take, utilize, and dig deeper into. Pure Glory https://pureglory.net/, they’ve got some good stuff. It’s so funny how little things like reading someone’s blog can show me a way through Him. When I hopped on YouTube another skit was there and I decided to click on it. It’s called You Are God’s Idea. I’ll link it below, worth a watch. It’s funny but has a great little message in the end. These are two things I needed to see and hear today. I now know I am not going to screw up my son, “It’s his plan and my responsibility.” And no, not to be confused with Obamacare. I thought it was funny…
So my fight against toxicity and for my son can all be won with a strong, sturdy, and unshakable armor that God’s so graciously placed upon me. I am a warrior that will fight until the end for what makes me thrive. It’s a blessing in itself.
I understand that I do talk a lot of religion and I don’t want that to shove people off. This is all our experience and what we do, believe, and fight for. It’s sad when you feel like you have to apologize for your own beliefs sometimes, but this world is also so sad. It’s so harsh and so unforgiving. I am honestly a person of peace and passion and I give my whole heart. I am not a half-hearted human being. Is it so much to ask for understanding and love? I’m hoping that this pandemic is really opening up everyone’s eyes. If you haven’t felt some sort of supernatural force in all this, I feel sorry for you. It doesn’t have to necessarily have to be religious, just any. Please. Wake up. I will do what I have to in order to serve my God, the one true God. Just fair warning.
You know what, I really don’t have to be a people-pleaser but for some reason it’s almost bred into us. That’s an aspect I wish I could diminish so that my words have more meaning. A writer stands behind their words. Absolutely, don’t get me wrong. It’s just hard when you have so many thoughts and feelings that aren’t your own and they are thrown in your face. It comes out and then I feel like it’s contradicting. From all the new faces of Bets, it’s hard to know what’s going to come out or be spoken anymore. So I apologize for any confusion when the posts go back and forth on feelings. We are a little bit of a torn organization but when it comes to what we are passionate about. (Our sweet son and our safety) we come together stronger than any chainmail laden armor.
I’m losing my points here, so this is our thoughts of the day. Keep a look out for those signs, they are some powerful stuff my dudes. -Bets/Jason/Zeus