I feel this pull on my heart strings to share some of Cultivate Worship and use this as my “journal” for the study, I suppose. The more I spend time in the word and with God, the less negative and depressed I feel. True happiness is only applied when I’m in his word, which he has been speaking clearly to me through. I had a good start to the day and then it started going downhill for no reason. It’s my doubts and insecurities getting the best of me and I know I’m not supposed to let that happen. I know better than that. I have said time and time again how I trust the Lord and he will provide. Why can’t my human mind just understand that and stay content in my situations? Again. He is fighting for me. It’s been a while since I’ve been able to just vent and use this as a journal. I know this may sound strange, but doing different themes each month just doesn’t cut what I need to get out straight from the heart. That’s exactly what this study is created to do. So, without further adieu, here goes nothing.

“May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer.” -Psalm 19:14

Worship is our opportunity to show our adoration and honor to who God is and what He is doing.

Worship helps unlock something God is waiting to give us. There are three things waiting on the other side of worship:

1. Healing
2. Peace
3. Purpose

Worship connects us to God.

Today is: November 30th, 2020

I’m Grateful For: The Written Word

Psalm 148:1-6:

“Praise the LORD! Praise the LORD from the heavens; praise him in the heights! Praise him, all his angels, praise him, all his hosts! Praise him, sun and moon, praise him, all you shining stars! Praise him, you highest heavens, and you waters above the heavens! Let them praise the name of the LORD! For he commanded and they were created, And he established them forever and ever. He gave a decree, and it shall not pass away.”

On My Heart Today:

(This is actually from November 7th, the first day I actually started this study. I wanted to share what I first wrote when starting.) The love I have towards the man sitting in my line of site. The Lord has blessed me with someone who will appreciate me for myself and sees my worth. I’m experiencing a clean, pure love that I truly did not know existed. It makes me realize that I can have a good life if I focus on what’s most important to me. Always putting God, Jesus, Holy Spirit first and being guided according to God’s Will for my life. I know with every fiber of my being this is exactly where I am supposed to be. The things happening in my life are changing and positive because I’ve FULLY given myself to the Lord. *Mind *Body *Spirit *Soul *ALL of it! I ask he uses me how he sees fit and I will obey. Life is always exciting and full of Joy when I’m living for Him. I didn’t think my life was ever going to change. The passion I have for everything and life is nothing short of a MIRACLE! ❤

My Word For Today:

Obedience- The authority of a religious superior, especially on the part of one who has vowed such conformance.

I’d like to try and steady do this every day to keep my head in the game and my heart heading in the right direction. Even if that’s how I felt that day, the way I’m feeling now is quite dismal. My heart is heavy and I feel depressed. I just want to sleep and not think about things of this world right now. Of course, then I just dream about my problems. It never fails. Whatever is weighing heavy on my heart pounces on me in the unconscious state. I have a lot I truly need to get out but it’s like I’m afraid to write these feelings out. To see what they look like jotted down makes me think it would be endless. I just don’t want to complain about a life chosen for me. I just know when I start to bottle things up what the outcome can be and that’s not what I’m looking for to happen. I’ve been so lucky that this is the outlet I have been wanting to use. Writing, journaling, reading the Bible, and really putting my heart into my small group and this bible study. My intentions are pure and I truly want to be all that God says I’m capable of being. I’m exhausted but I need to stay awake or I’ll be up at 1 and that’ll be it for a good night’s sleep. ~Sigh~