Nothing Special

I really need to work on my french toast-making skills. You’d think someone who has always loved them could make them. I fell short of flavor, Gordon Ramsay would’ve had my ass. “What is this soggy tasteless egg slab? This isn’t even edible…” Yet Patrick still ate it all and was sweet about it. It’sContinue reading “Nothing Special”

Let It All Out, Girl…

I’m just going to write what comes to my mind even if it doesn’t make sense, even if I have no idea why I would think it, or maybe it’ll just help me make complete sense out of some of it. Here goes… I’m fat. I’ve gained back 15-20 pounds and I feel bloated andContinue reading “Let It All Out, Girl…”

The Perfect Cup

Can I just take a moment and admire the man who knows how to make a cup of coffee? I slowly woke up this morning from another nightmare that had me confused as to where I was. It’s one I’ve been having a lot lately and it helps to wake up in his bed. ComingContinue reading “The Perfect Cup”

Too Many Tabs Open

Move, dammit! Say something. ANYTHING. I have so many things going on inside my head that I can’t stop the whirlwind of thoughts enough to grab just one. I need to reorganize my library again, damn thought closet is so disheveled. There are too many things happening inside and nothing produces on the outside. HasContinue reading “Too Many Tabs Open”

Expectations

I asked a question to my study group today about expectations and I was surprised by all of the responses that I received to it. These women are comfortable enough to come out and acknowledge their unrealistic expectations. This got me thinking about mine. My mind immediately went to my ex-husband. I expected him toContinue reading “Expectations”

Resolving My Future

I can move on. Resolving my case was one of the most satisfying things. I feel so many different changes within that I can’t describe. I feel a calm and peace I’ve never known. I have no urge to touch the bottle again. It makes me sick to my stomach from the way it madeContinue reading “Resolving My Future”

Merry Christmas Eve

There is this one Christmas Eve memory that I have that is engraved into my mind and I think about it every year. We were at Grandma Carol and Grandpa Jack’s house back when we lived in NW Indiana. I would say I was in 6th grade at the time and I was sitting inContinue reading “Merry Christmas Eve”

Little Update

The time around Christmas is always a little difficult for me emotionally. I’m trying so hard not to let them get to me like they used to. We all know what that does. So I guess I should start this without immediately bashing my spirit, huh? One thing that is completely different is going toContinue reading “Little Update”

Hello December

I have this haze of sadness circling me and it won’t go away. It’s not just about one thing, I think it’s a mix of many emotions I can’t place at the moment. Hello December. As much as I’ve always thought December was a happy and exciting month, ever since I was little, there wasContinue reading “Hello December”