So, what’s been going on you ask? I’ve contemplated packing for the last three weeks just to get it done. Everything has to be out by the first of July, so I still have time, but it’ll feel rushed. Typical “Me” style, I am the procrastinator of procrastination. I have a bookshelf I would likeContinue reading “What’s the haps”
Category Archives: System Speaks
IDK…
Everybody wants to be recognized, it doesn’t matter who you are. We have a want to “be someone” or “leave a legacy”. Some exclaim they don’t want to be seen to secretly be seen. It’s a need of the flesh. Sometimes we pretend to be someone we are not. It’s hard to hide behind aContinue reading “IDK…”
Just Write Already…
Have you seen the episode of Spongebob where he has to write a paper and gets stuck on the very first word? He finds distractions and things to occupy his time just so he doesn’t have to start. That stuck feeling and not knowing what to write, or having too much to write and don’tContinue reading “Just Write Already…”
My Backwards Walk
Have you ever heard that song? It’s by Frightened Rabbit and it makes so much more sense to me now than ever. I thought I would be affected by it but I felt almost numb or “okay”. I think I know what that means. I’m seriously ready to let go of that life and everythingContinue reading “My Backwards Walk”
Nothing Special
I really need to work on my french toast-making skills. You’d think someone who has always loved them could make them. I fell short of flavor, Gordon Ramsay would’ve had my ass. “What is this soggy tasteless egg slab? This isn’t even edible…” Yet Patrick still ate it all and was sweet about it. It’sContinue reading “Nothing Special”
Let It All Out, Girl…
I’m just going to write what comes to my mind even if it doesn’t make sense, even if I have no idea why I would think it, or maybe it’ll just help me make complete sense out of some of it. Here goes… I’m fat. I’ve gained back 15-20 pounds and I feel bloated andContinue reading “Let It All Out, Girl…”
The Perfect Cup
Can I just take a moment and admire the man who knows how to make a cup of coffee? I slowly woke up this morning from another nightmare that had me confused as to where I was. It’s one I’ve been having a lot lately and it helps to wake up in his bed. ComingContinue reading “The Perfect Cup”
Friends?
I want them and I don’t. I try and then I bail. I cherish my alone time but there are times when I want to hang out. The thing is, I don’t have them. My best friend, I live with. He has been enough. Yeah, I have friends online and really try to keep upContinue reading “Friends?”
Too Many Tabs Open
Move, dammit! Say something. ANYTHING. I have so many things going on inside my head that I can’t stop the whirlwind of thoughts enough to grab just one. I need to reorganize my library again, damn thought closet is so disheveled. There are too many things happening inside and nothing produces on the outside. HasContinue reading “Too Many Tabs Open”
Expectations
I asked a question to my study group today about expectations and I was surprised by all of the responses that I received to it. These women are comfortable enough to come out and acknowledge their unrealistic expectations. This got me thinking about mine. My mind immediately went to my ex-husband. I expected him toContinue reading “Expectations”