The Perfect Cup

Can I just take a moment and admire the man who knows how to make a cup of coffee? I slowly woke up this morning from another nightmare that had me confused as to where I was. It’s one I’ve been having a lot lately and it helps to wake up in his bed. ComingContinue reading “The Perfect Cup”

Too Many Tabs Open

Move, dammit! Say something. ANYTHING. I have so many things going on inside my head that I can’t stop the whirlwind of thoughts enough to grab just one. I need to reorganize my library again, damn thought closet is so disheveled. There are too many things happening inside and nothing produces on the outside. HasContinue reading “Too Many Tabs Open”

Expectations

I asked a question to my study group today about expectations and I was surprised by all of the responses that I received to it. These women are comfortable enough to come out and acknowledge their unrealistic expectations. This got me thinking about mine. My mind immediately went to my ex-husband. I expected him toContinue reading “Expectations”

Resolving My Future

I can move on. Resolving my case was one of the most satisfying things. I feel so many different changes within that I can’t describe. I feel a calm and peace I’ve never known. I have no urge to touch the bottle again. It makes me sick to my stomach from the way it madeContinue reading “Resolving My Future”

Merry Christmas Eve

There is this one Christmas Eve memory that I have that is engraved into my mind and I think about it every year. We were at Grandma Carol and Grandpa Jack’s house back when we lived in NW Indiana. I would say I was in 6th grade at the time and I was sitting inContinue reading “Merry Christmas Eve”

Little Update

The time around Christmas is always a little difficult for me emotionally. I’m trying so hard not to let them get to me like they used to. We all know what that does. So I guess I should start this without immediately bashing my spirit, huh? One thing that is completely different is going toContinue reading “Little Update”

Hello December

I have this haze of sadness circling me and it won’t go away. It’s not just about one thing, I think it’s a mix of many emotions I can’t place at the moment. Hello December. As much as I’ve always thought December was a happy and exciting month, ever since I was little, there wasContinue reading “Hello December”

Thanksgiving Eve

Does anyone get excited as I do over Thanksgiving? As much as I want to say it’s been ruined, when I think about it, that’s not the case. We can all pin bad memories of tragic events to holidays but we can also cherish them for what they are and who is around us now.Continue reading “Thanksgiving Eve”

How Not To Be Triggered

Easy. Don’t think. At all. Think happy thoughts… What are those anyway? Don’t think about Ikea. Don’t listen to any songs to remind you. Don’t think about where you work, Lord knows how close you are. Shut it all off. Pretend it’s all going to be okay. So how, in some way, find out howContinue reading “How Not To Be Triggered”