Let Me Sleep

So like clockwork I am up. My lack of sleep has been frustrating and being so thrown off is making me feel a little irritable. Last night I woke up at 1:30 am and I was awake until 9 last night. I took my two gummy melatonin and passed out. Woke up at 10:30, thenContinue reading “Let Me Sleep”

Coming Back To Life

I have that familiar feeling I used to have, before all of this, back when life was simpler. When it wasn’t talking to attorneys, lawyers, and court dates over Zoom. I’m tired of serving and being served. I just want my life back. I want the ease of not having to worry about what isContinue reading “Coming Back To Life”

You Tried To Take Me Down With You

Down that little white rabbit’s hole you loved so much growing up. Little did I know that you wanted to drag this Alice down with you. But why make me drink the potion to make me tiny only for me to drink the one that made me rise above you? Sitting at the table withContinue reading “You Tried To Take Me Down With You”

Admittance

The way I’ve been feeling emotions lately have been more intense than usual to say the least. I am sensitive to many things and I’m working on not letting things get to me so much. Other’s intentions are never as bad as what my own mind makes them out to be. I assume, which weContinue reading “Admittance”

Tell Me How You Really Feel

Depressed. Content? Mindless. Numb? Proud. Skeptical? A whole lot. That’s really how I’m feeling right now. Today was the beginning of our small groups. It rocked my world when I woke up to 40+ Facebook notifications. It was almost too overwhelming to handle right after waking up. God answers prayers. Let me be a livingContinue reading “Tell Me How You Really Feel”

Hitting Pause

It’s group loading day for small groups and I am supposed to be so super excited about everything and just ready to go, right? So why so I feel the most depressed I have in a long time? This isn’t the way it’s supposed to be. Right? I can’t even figure out what I’m tryingContinue reading “Hitting Pause”

Torn to Transgressions

Today I stand torn. My feelings are torn and it infuriates me to no end. The more I go down this path of righteousness the more I am starting to see where all my sins fall. I am aware of the wrong I am doing in my life and it makes me want to correctContinue reading “Torn to Transgressions”

God Calling

I don’t even know where to begin here. I have so many emotions running through me that I literally don’t know what to do with them. I keep sitting here, staring off wondering what do I do next? I decided to try and write it out but I feel so spacey. I also feel reallyContinue reading “God Calling”

Manic Flow

I’m back baby, in full swing, and full control. Man does it feel good to be out and living life like I just don’t give a fuck. What!? I need to calm down but I’m so excited that I can’t hardly stand it. You want to know what over? NOTHING. Yea. You read that right,Continue reading “Manic Flow”

Negatives & Positives

Is there such thing as positive addictions? I mean, with a negative there is always a positive, or is there? I have been contemplating this as I was, again, talking to my mentor, let’s just face it. She is one of my best friends, no denying that one. One of the responses I had toContinue reading “Negatives & Positives”