Fears and Frailties

Lord, I place my full trust in you for the plans you have for me in P31 Ministries. I think you’ve got something beautiful to unfold before me and now I’m excited. I am also going to place my fears of the future through whatever I may go through. Your will be done. Amen. “JustContinue reading “Fears and Frailties”

Can’t Get Into It

I’m having a real problem grasping onto the words of what this author is saying. It just all seems to run together and not stick to me at all. I am trying and every time I start to read I get lost. I can’t follow the words and they aren’t doing what I think wasContinue reading “Can’t Get Into It”

Mess Of A Mind

What is one failure that is hanging over you and holding you back from being the person God created you to be? “There is plenty that is keeping me from this. Growing up I was never good enough. Still being proved to this day. I’ve felt shame my whole life. It drags me down everyContinue reading “Mess Of A Mind”

Recap Before Nightcap

I’m pretty sure my run has come to an end. I have both extreme physical and mental exhaustion. The switches are becoming too much and I’m tired of wondering who is the one fronting. It’s been a confusing past couple days and I think my body is asking for a system shutdown for the night.Continue reading “Recap Before Nightcap”

The W’s

I’m just going to come right out and say it, today has been fucking weird. I can’t settle my thoughts that make no sense. I have been confused. I have felt lost. Everything I write just doesn’t make sense to me. I feel like I’m at a creative loss. I don’t know the right wordsContinue reading “The W’s”

Like Manna From Heaven

Every feeling is legitimate. Every feeling is also not a fact. We are so consumed with what we lack and we only see what we don’t have. The Lord should be my portion. We need to feed ourselves from the manna of the Lord. His portion is perfect. We need to be willing to recognizeContinue reading “Like Manna From Heaven”

It’s Cluttered In Here

I think it’s going to be mental health check in day. These past couple of days have been just a blur and in the “numb” category. I can also check off confused, nauseated, irritated, and lack of motivation. When I clicked to write an entry normally something flies up from the pages of my libraryContinue reading “It’s Cluttered In Here”

From Nothing To Something

Have you ever had this fantastic idea and you think, “Huh. I should write about that. Let’s open up a fresh page and see what pours out of us today.” Then you sit there as ten minutes go back, eyes glossed over, and realise you have no idea what to write. So you put aContinue reading “From Nothing To Something”

Search Me

God, I desperately need you to search me right now. I need to know where my priorities lie and where I’m going wrong. My anxieties are getting the best of me and I’m over-analyzing and making up situations in my head and they haven’t even happened. I’m creating scenarios that aren’t even real and it’sContinue reading “Search Me”

Night Chatter

Now, I am not one to use a phone to write an entry. My fingers don’t move as fast as the words in my head. Not to mention the words turning into other words that are not intended. I absolutely one hundred percent can not sleep. Do you remember as a kid being so excitedContinue reading “Night Chatter”