Co-conscious Conversation

Talk to me. Why did that scare you? YOU DON’T REMEMBER WHAT JUST SCARED YOU? Nope, guess I don’t. This is not going up. I’m not going to leave you. I promise you, okay? Trust me. Please. That’s all I want. I’m anxious. I don’t like to feel feelings. It’s so exhausting. It’s intense. IContinue reading “Co-conscious Conversation”

Uh, What?

I honestly don’t know if it’s delirium from lack of sleep, food, and the copious amounts of daytime and nighttime Alka Seltzer Cold & Flu I’ve been taking, but I feel high. I’ve felt this way for about three days now. Floating, nothing hurts, nothing bothering me. A lot of times I can’t feel myContinue reading “Uh, What?”

There’s No Place Like Home

I’m having a very strange and unusual day. I am having fibro flare ups and my dissociation is VERY bad today. The scriptures I’ve been coming across, the things subtle little signs are there, and it is giving me so much anxiety I feel like passing out. So I guess that there is no placeContinue reading “There’s No Place Like Home”

Blogtober Day 10-Bittersweet

Day 10-Most Sentimental Costume You’ve Ever Worn As odd as this may seem, I want to share exactly what I wrote On October 11th, 2013 about the night of October 31st, 2011. “In 2011 I went as a ‘sexy’ Cubs baseball player, I also worked at WD Liquor store at that time. I had beenContinue reading “Blogtober Day 10-Bittersweet”

Nonsensical

This week is going by as quickly as I expected it to. I’m still wanting to rush everything to get back down there and I know I’m going to regret all of this. Eddie needs to be close to his Dad and I believe this to be true. He needs him in his life andContinue reading “Nonsensical”

What Just Happened Here?

What’s on my mind, you ask? So glad you want to know. Feelings of entrapment. Knowing I can’t get into my car and just go. Oh I hate when this feeling rears its’ ugly little head. I feel like I couldn’t go anywhere without judgement if I tried. I feel stuck in my life. IContinue reading “What Just Happened Here?”

Can’t Get Into It

I’m having a real problem grasping onto the words of what this author is saying. It just all seems to run together and not stick to me at all. I am trying and every time I start to read I get lost. I can’t follow the words and they aren’t doing what I think wasContinue reading “Can’t Get Into It”