Ctrl + Alt + Del

You know that wonderful button combo that you press and you can shut down whatever you want, granted you don’t blue screen because of how messed up you are? Oh, you thought I was talking about my computer? Nah. That thing runs just fine. What isn’t running right is the hardwire system inside my head.Continue reading “Ctrl + Alt + Del”

You Tried To Take Me Down With You

Down that little white rabbit’s hole you loved so much growing up. Little did I know that you wanted to drag this Alice down with you. But why make me drink the potion to make me tiny only for me to drink the one that made me rise above you? Sitting at the table withContinue reading “You Tried To Take Me Down With You”

Search Me

God, I desperately need you to search me right now. I need to know where my priorities lie and where I’m going wrong. My anxieties are getting the best of me and I’m over-analyzing and making up situations in my head and they haven’t even happened. I’m creating scenarios that aren’t even real and it’sContinue reading “Search Me”

I Just Can’t Ignore This

I can honestly say that this feeling I’m having is unable to be ignored or put off. I’ve never had it to this extent and something about it is so confusing. It almost feels like a part of my soul has been ripped out and it’s trying to find its’ way home? What comes toContinue reading “I Just Can’t Ignore This”

Floating Around

My mind has been nothing but a mess today. I feel like it is constantly overflowing with emotions and I don’t necessarily know how to handle them all the time. Sterling has been ever-present in my mind with his anger and I can’t stand when he rears his head. I love the guy, he hasContinue reading “Floating Around”

Meet Autumn: Emotional Rant

It’s come to my attention that when I’m extremely happy I rip it away from myself as if I’m not deserving of it. I’m so deserving of this feeling. I’m tired of having to put my own emotions on the back burner because I feel every one else so strongly. I’ve got 20/20 vision thisContinue reading “Meet Autumn: Emotional Rant”