Listen To Yourself

Every time I begin to write I think to myself, “Do I have the allotted time to do such? Will Eddie need me or will there be any interruptions?” When I begin my thought process, if it gets disturbed I lose it. I’m lucky if I can sit right back down and continue on withContinue reading “Listen To Yourself”

Forbidden Fruit

You. Your scent. That irresistible, yet forbidden. Pressing hard into my memory, sustaining yet poisonous on so many levels. With each inhale of lust comes sin. Such a delicious sin and that sin is You. The extreme amount of pleasure I receive, each swirl of you that brings me to my knees. It grips ontoContinue reading “Forbidden Fruit”

The W’s

I’m just going to come right out and say it, today has been fucking weird. I can’t settle my thoughts that make no sense. I have been confused. I have felt lost. Everything I write just doesn’t make sense to me. I feel like I’m at a creative loss. I don’t know the right wordsContinue reading “The W’s”

Like Manna From Heaven

Every feeling is legitimate. Every feeling is also not a fact. We are so consumed with what we lack and we only see what we don’t have. The Lord should be my portion. We need to feed ourselves from the manna of the Lord. His portion is perfect. We need to be willing to recognizeContinue reading “Like Manna From Heaven”

The Moon From Concord

There’s something about the moon that speaks to me. The soft white aura that so graciously hovers around its edges as it sits full and lusciously in the sky. A spotlight for all to see, you won’t be lost for long. Primal instinct makes me want to lovingly howl to her. Proclaim my presence andContinue reading “The Moon From Concord”

It’s Cluttered In Here

I think it’s going to be mental health check in day. These past couple of days have been just a blur and in the “numb” category. I can also check off confused, nauseated, irritated, and lack of motivation. When I clicked to write an entry normally something flies up from the pages of my libraryContinue reading “It’s Cluttered In Here”

Dreams Big and Small

So last night I was having a conversation with You. It really made me start thinking and my mind started going all sorts of directions with the running topic. Why is it, when we have a dream big or small, we always have those little feelings of defeat that just make us spiral? I haveContinue reading “Dreams Big and Small”

A Mind Melt

I’m extremely confused on how I feel today. It’s almost like I’m going through a handful of other’s emotions and it’s becoming exhausting again. I keep watching videos of systems on like on YouTube and today Jess of Multiplicity & Me shared information on faking and a 12 point checklist they use to diagnose DIDContinue reading “A Mind Melt”

Let’s Refocus

I’m finding that it’s one of those days where I woke up and everything was automatically thrown off. I’m still reeling in a headache, my nerves are all screwed up now and my sciatica is howling. I’m trying to do everything in my power to shut my racing mind off and find some zen. IContinue reading “Let’s Refocus”

Validity Next Level

I have to put a disclaimer here. This is a TRIGGER WARNING. Mention of self-mutilation and bodily fluids. So of the systems that I talk to, I’ve noticed that feeling like you are faking is a common ground. It’s almost like you don’t want to acknowledge you’ve got a disorder because there’s no way possibleContinue reading “Validity Next Level”