Recap Before Nightcap

I’m pretty sure my run has come to an end. I have both extreme physical and mental exhaustion. The switches are becoming too much and I’m tired of wondering who is the one fronting. It’s been a confusing past couple days and I think my body is asking for a system shutdown for the night.Continue reading “Recap Before Nightcap”

Impromptu Activities

I want to write so bad. I’m in such a mood and my thoughts are not forming properly through my spoken or written word today. Has that ever happened to you? I almost feel ignorant for not being able to explain myself. I’m having a couple conversations going through messenger and after I hit send,Continue reading “Impromptu Activities”

Listen To Yourself

Every time I begin to write I think to myself, “Do I have the allotted time to do such? Will Eddie need me or will there be any interruptions?” When I begin my thought process, if it gets disturbed I lose it. I’m lucky if I can sit right back down and continue on withContinue reading “Listen To Yourself”

Forbidden Fruit

You. Your scent. That irresistible, yet forbidden. Pressing hard into my memory, sustaining yet poisonous on so many levels. With each inhale of lust comes sin. Such a delicious sin and that sin is You. The extreme amount of pleasure I receive, each swirl of you that brings me to my knees. It grips ontoContinue reading “Forbidden Fruit”

The W’s

I’m just going to come right out and say it, today has been fucking weird. I can’t settle my thoughts that make no sense. I have been confused. I have felt lost. Everything I write just doesn’t make sense to me. I feel like I’m at a creative loss. I don’t know the right wordsContinue reading “The W’s”

Like Manna From Heaven

Every feeling is legitimate. Every feeling is also not a fact. We are so consumed with what we lack and we only see what we don’t have. The Lord should be my portion. We need to feed ourselves from the manna of the Lord. His portion is perfect. We need to be willing to recognizeContinue reading “Like Manna From Heaven”

The Moon From Concord

There’s something about the moon that speaks to me. The soft white aura that so graciously hovers around its edges as it sits full and lusciously in the sky. A spotlight for all to see, you won’t be lost for long. Primal instinct makes me want to lovingly howl to her. Proclaim my presence andContinue reading “The Moon From Concord”

It’s Cluttered In Here

I think it’s going to be mental health check in day. These past couple of days have been just a blur and in the “numb” category. I can also check off confused, nauseated, irritated, and lack of motivation. When I clicked to write an entry normally something flies up from the pages of my libraryContinue reading “It’s Cluttered In Here”

Dreams Big and Small

So last night I was having a conversation with You. It really made me start thinking and my mind started going all sorts of directions with the running topic. Why is it, when we have a dream big or small, we always have those little feelings of defeat that just make us spiral? I haveContinue reading “Dreams Big and Small”

A Mind Melt

I’m extremely confused on how I feel today. It’s almost like I’m going through a handful of other’s emotions and it’s becoming exhausting again. I keep watching videos of systems on like on YouTube and today Jess of Multiplicity & Me shared information on faking and a 12 point checklist they use to diagnose DIDContinue reading “A Mind Melt”