What’s the haps

So, what’s been going on you ask? I’ve contemplated packing for the last three weeks just to get it done. Everything has to be out by the first of July, so I still have time, but it’ll feel rushed. Typical “Me” style, I am the procrastinator of procrastination. I have a bookshelf I would likeContinue reading “What’s the haps”

Just Write Already…

Have you seen the episode of Spongebob where he has to write a paper and gets stuck on the very first word? He finds distractions and things to occupy his time just so he doesn’t have to start. That stuck feeling and not knowing what to write, or having too much to write and don’tContinue reading “Just Write Already…”

My Backwards Walk

Have you ever heard that song? It’s by Frightened Rabbit and it makes so much more sense to me now than ever. I thought I would be affected by it but I felt almost numb or “okay”. I think I know what that means. I’m seriously ready to let go of that life and everythingContinue reading “My Backwards Walk”

Fruit of the Spirit

That is today’s topic of study for myself. Learning what is good in my life and what needs work on. Boy, do I need work … I want to bear all of the fruit, there’s no getting around that. Those sinful natures though — that’s what gets us. So let’s go ahead and take aContinue reading “Fruit of the Spirit”

Let It All Out, Girl…

I’m just going to write what comes to my mind even if it doesn’t make sense, even if I have no idea why I would think it, or maybe it’ll just help me make complete sense out of some of it. Here goes… I’m fat. I’ve gained back 15-20 pounds and I feel bloated andContinue reading “Let It All Out, Girl…”

Too Many Tabs Open

Move, dammit! Say something. ANYTHING. I have so many things going on inside my head that I can’t stop the whirlwind of thoughts enough to grab just one. I need to reorganize my library again, damn thought closet is so disheveled. There are too many things happening inside and nothing produces on the outside. HasContinue reading “Too Many Tabs Open”

Expectations

I asked a question to my study group today about expectations and I was surprised by all of the responses that I received to it. These women are comfortable enough to come out and acknowledge their unrealistic expectations. This got me thinking about mine. My mind immediately went to my ex-husband. I expected him toContinue reading “Expectations”

Resolving My Future

I can move on. Resolving my case was one of the most satisfying things. I feel so many different changes within that I can’t describe. I feel a calm and peace I’ve never known. I have no urge to touch the bottle again. It makes me sick to my stomach from the way it madeContinue reading “Resolving My Future”

Little Update

The time around Christmas is always a little difficult for me emotionally. I’m trying so hard not to let them get to me like they used to. We all know what that does. So I guess I should start this without immediately bashing my spirit, huh? One thing that is completely different is going toContinue reading “Little Update”