Too Many Tabs Open

Move, dammit! Say something. ANYTHING. I have so many things going on inside my head that I can’t stop the whirlwind of thoughts enough to grab just one. I need to reorganize my library again, damn thought closet is so disheveled. There are too many things happening inside and nothing produces on the outside. HasContinue reading “Too Many Tabs Open”

Expectations

I asked a question to my study group today about expectations and I was surprised by all of the responses that I received to it. These women are comfortable enough to come out and acknowledge their unrealistic expectations. This got me thinking about mine. My mind immediately went to my ex-husband. I expected him toContinue reading “Expectations”

Resolving My Future

I can move on. Resolving my case was one of the most satisfying things. I feel so many different changes within that I can’t describe. I feel a calm and peace I’ve never known. I have no urge to touch the bottle again. It makes me sick to my stomach from the way it madeContinue reading “Resolving My Future”

Little Update

The time around Christmas is always a little difficult for me emotionally. I’m trying so hard not to let them get to me like they used to. We all know what that does. So I guess I should start this without immediately bashing my spirit, huh? One thing that is completely different is going toContinue reading “Little Update”

Why work on me?

Why wouldn’t I work on myself? Working on myself and healing means I become stronger in spirit, in faith and can be more readily available for all the plans God has for me. Why is it so hard for me to find a starting point? I don’t know where to start. I feel like whenContinue reading “Why work on me?”

How Not To Be Triggered

Easy. Don’t think. At all. Think happy thoughts… What are those anyway? Don’t think about Ikea. Don’t listen to any songs to remind you. Don’t think about where you work, Lord knows how close you are. Shut it all off. Pretend it’s all going to be okay. So how, in some way, find out howContinue reading “How Not To Be Triggered”

I thought so…

What I am thankful for (With Commentary): Eddie Patrick Dexter My Mom’s dogs: Bugsy and Morty My Mom and Dad Coffee Books (Freedom pages) Writing Creativity Coffee Mugs (I just took a sip) Bees (They make the best darn honey. Mhmm, especially in Earl Grey Tea.) Fuzzy Blankets (Talk about comfort and security.) Life GoalsContinue reading “I thought so…”

Writing. Meaning. Life.

I’ve always been an awkward talker. Crazy, right? I tend to be able to think clearer when I am in my head space. Thinking the words, just not spewing out nonsense and hope it came close to what I was trying to say. Writing. Writing is so much clearer. The way I am attracted toContinue reading “Writing. Meaning. Life.”