A Mind Melt

I’m extremely confused on how I feel today. It’s almost like I’m going through a handful of other’s emotions and it’s becoming exhausting again. I keep watching videos of systems on like on YouTube and today Jess of Multiplicity & Me shared information on faking and a 12 point checklist they use to diagnose DIDContinue reading “A Mind Melt”

Let’s Refocus

I’m finding that it’s one of those days where I woke up and everything was automatically thrown off. I’m still reeling in a headache, my nerves are all screwed up now and my sciatica is howling. I’m trying to do everything in my power to shut my racing mind off and find some zen. IContinue reading “Let’s Refocus”

Validity Next Level

I have to put a disclaimer here. This is a TRIGGER WARNING. Mention of self-mutilation and bodily fluids. So of the systems that I talk to, I’ve noticed that feeling like you are faking is a common ground. It’s almost like you don’t want to acknowledge you’ve got a disorder because there’s no way possibleContinue reading “Validity Next Level”

Short and Sweet

My sleep patterns are so strange. I’ve been falling asleep around 10:30-11 the last couple nights and sleeping through until 9. That’s like teenage Betsy’s sleep. Normally I’m up until at least 2-3 and up at 8. I’m not complaining, I guess the body has been desperately needing this sleep. That or smoking indica atContinue reading “Short and Sweet”

Slow Down

It’s funny how a song can make you sit, look around, and realize that you need to live in the moment. As I sit here toggling between Facebook, blog posts, Bible, Twitter, YouTube, and various google pages to look up things, I stop. Sitting at this old wooden table in this kitchen makes me rememberContinue reading “Slow Down”

I Have Been Nominated for The Penable Award!

Hello, Dear Readers! I have the honor of announcing that I have been Nominated to receive  The Penable Award! A huge thanks to  fellow Blogger Alliediltz This award is given to really special people with brilliant writing skills. It’s given to authors, poets, story writers, inspiring people or just a great blog. If you receiveContinue reading “I Have Been Nominated for The Penable Award!”

Signs

Do you believe in signs? I’m not saying just from God, like universal signs as well? I’ve been having a lot of them from both and it’s almost starting to make me panic and feel excited and confused at the same time. The issues I’m having in my life are all adding up into oneContinue reading “Signs”

List of Comfort and Randomness

The thought of Disney, whether it be parks, movies, stuffed animals, memorabilia, treats. Everything Disney.Warm hugs. (Oh look, an Olaf reference)Eddie cuddles.Candles burning before bedtime. A time we reflect on it all.Warm cup of coffee or tea.Writing. Any form of writing. It’s one of the most comforting things in the world. Think I’m lying? FightContinue reading “List of Comfort and Randomness”

About That Search Me Thing

I’m not one to previously retract any statement that I have ever made. Everything I say and do is for a reason. I know what I did when I did it. When I asked God to graciously search me, he decided to put it into full affect. I’ve had dreams and little things come upContinue reading “About That Search Me Thing”